Thursday, September 30
been so confused lately. i don't know why. so tired. three weeks, and it's goodbye to my dearest class. i am honestly going to miss you. all the times we sang together. do you remember? i love how spontaneous we are. all that praying. it really helps, you know. makes me feel so good, to just hold hands in a circle and pray and pray and cry and know there's no judging. the way we hug for no reason. and act like we're in lower sec or smth. i love it that we aren't damned muggers like some people, and that we can have fun even while studying. there's never been a cold war. thank goodness something didn't carry over from 2e202. only the good things. and hey i think we left the muggers behind too. but now we've got to really study. of course not as crazily as certain people. that's madness. studying's our first duty, but 'just living is not enough'. we've got to live life. eat, sleep and be merry in between studying. but i believe there can be 6pters from our class.. yes? i believe it, believe in you. i know many of us can get our stars on the wall. i mean how many of us already got our 5 distinctions? *grins* eh i didn't say a1. sometimes it's nice to say distinction, okay? so.. no matter how stupid you feel sometimes, no matter how lousily you think you're doing, just believe. see how God has blessed us? take what you are given, and be grateful. tadahh. in the meantime keep praying, keep studying, and keep laughing. cos i love our laughter. =D and i love all of you! =D i'm so going to miss the happening back row.. *gets hanky ready* i'm never going to forget this, forget us, forget you.
as for the confused part. i can't ever remember the new timetable. and i sleep super early and wake up tired. i think i sleep too much. must try harder to keep awake i guess. i'm not sure whether i want to do arts or science in jc. seems my humance and science are of the same standard. and both are heavy. and i'm lazy regarding both. but humance uses more brains larh. but laziness isn't the reason why i choose triple. pride and fear of the unknown are what i remember. guess the second principle applies for jc. considering sa. it's far, but it's not as bad as *ahem* plus.. i think loads of us plan to go there? so we can go there, and as vank said.. have a whole new class, consisting of guess who.. 4e604! whoohoo! =D iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou =D but of course we know those are just dreams. it won't ever be. and stop glaring at me when i say i'm considering humance! i don't know what i want. well it doesn't matter now, might as well mug for o's. gosh i really pray i don't end up like some damned mugger. eek. what kind of memories would that leave..
p.s. i'm really thanking God for smth this prelims.. i got an a1 for lit again! like.. at last.. i was starting to feel utterly useless.. then tues morning.. my lit teacher walked past and told me i did very well for unseen. =D.. 22/25. hee. but king was pretty bad, no a1. so my humance was an a2. oh well. at least not f9 larh. i pray that for o's.. may God be merciful again! undeserving lazy wretch that i am. *knocks head* i think i stepped on some splinters and didnt realise it or smth. my toe kena infected. ouch.
it must've been love.
5:27 pm
xoxo
